Lost Post

Hm, I had started to write another post...but I had to leave so I saved it. But apparantly not, it has now vanished :S I can't even remember what I wrote, it was a while ago..

I was asked a minute ago by my friend (who I don't talk to as much as I used to since he stopped flirting with me and got a girlfriend) if I was happy. Thinking about it, my heart warmed in a literal sense and I had a stupidly big grin. All I could think of to reply was that 'yes I really really am' as you've learnt I'm HIGHLY eloquent XD But there are no real words to describe it, the only thing that seems to grasp how you feel are songs where someone else managed to find the words for you. And every time you hear it, you always think of that person that makes you feel the exact same way.

Speaking of love and happiness ;) I stayed at Joe's on friday night. I don't think he really grasps how much I'd rather just stay with him forever and never have to leave. If I could have my own way we would do. But I have enough dreams as it is :D Let's just say I'm very tired right now and it's all his fault (Jumping up and down on me shouting 'Hayleeyy wake upp!! It's morningg!!' at 3:00am...yeah, morning XD) it's the times he's being absolutely crazy that make me realise how lucky I really am and how amazing he is. Well, not at the time, I wanted to sleep. But now i think its really cute :P

I dont really have anything to talk about now =/ I've spent most of my free time with Joe...college seems to be easier this year. Well not easier but it's more fun and I'm putting more effort in which makes it seem easier. Last year the effort never really happened. Thankfully everyone understands why I'm being anti-social because after the results day last year I think a lot of people realised they need to do more this year. I'm just glad University is on the same lever, I don't think I could take any more.

I had a lovely lecture from mum about where I'm heading. Apparantly I need to put more effort in, I'm already putting in twice as much as last year! It just ended with me seriously considering changing my entire future beause she just made me think I couldn't do it. My mum's nice and all most of the time, but I don't get on with her because she just damages my self esteem. Up to this point I let her make me believe I was fat to the point I hated myself. Which is very vain, but I felt awkward enough as it was, *points to picture* :P I was never anything special, always in the background being invisible.

Not quite sure how I got on to that tangent... figured I ought to stop XD

I'll say good-bye because I'm now running on empty :S

~*~ Hayley ~*~
P.s.
I
Love
You
Joe
Reid
♥