Urgh I'm bored of my hair again :( I hate it when this happens, the last time I got bored of my hair, last halloween I ended up dark brunette, and I liked it. I'd love to have really really red hair, like, dark-ish red. But unfortunately my skin probably wouldn't allow it =/ I don't know really, and there's also the force that is my mother.
Also I wouldn't want to upset Joe, if he for some reason prefers the ginger-ness that is on top of my head. I may ask him, then head down to boots and get some dye, either dark red, dark reddish brown or brown methinks.
Anyways, I've been having very very happy times at the moment, I dunno, I think that because the pressure of exams has been lifted every student has a new lease of life. Everyone seems happier to have them out of the way. New modules seem more interesting, our biology teacher nearly has her mojo back though she does still insist on the occasional 'work pack' every now and again. I don't know how she thinks filling in a gap sheet makes and information go in. Oh well, I guess we all have the knowledge that in a few months we get to start all over again.
Buut, after that, none of us have to see anyone else unless we actually want to. Leaving school/college FREE education is quite scary, I don't know if I'm ready to be an adult. Spending 5 minutes in my company makes anyone realise that I'm not the most mature person on the planet, but I can't help but behave childishly. Life would be boring if anyone was too serious, they'd never have any fun. But the idea of having to go and make more new friends is just terrifying, I like the ones I have now thank you very much. I never make good first impressions, either by being hyperactive when we meet so they think I'm like...really weird, or by being too shy where people just think I'm too quiet to bother with. Every time I've done something that required me to make new friends, ie when we moved down here and then when I went to college; I've promised myself that I would be more outgoing. So far it hasn't worked.
I mean sure, I've made quite a few friends whilst I was in college and I wouldn't change any of my friends from school, I just don't like trying to talk to people I don't know. I daresay I'll be fine, because I have been so far, I never don't make friends (unless I choose not to) so yeah it'll be good. It's just the prospect that's scary.
The topic of great discussion at the moment is student finance. Lucy was freaking out because she thought that she only had £3,500 to live off of a year and her accomodation was going to be £4,000, so how on earth was she going to afford the extra £500. Luckily the government's a little more generous than that, and you get two loads of money to live off of. The maintenance loan (mine is £3995) and the maintenance grant (mine is like £2000) so all in all I'm going to be getting £6,000. And my accomodation isi £3.5K a year so I'll have £2.5K to live off of a year. In three handy term packages. I'm especially thankful that they hand out money termly, cos I'd be worrying about spending all my money and having nothing at the end of the year.
I honestly just can't wait to leave home. I can't wait to rule my own life. I can't wait to be able to go to Joe's on any long weekends I have free. He doesn't know that yet, hopefully he won't read this, but I'm going to surprise him with a visit soon after I've left. Because I think that's the thing that's troubling us both at the moment, what happens in september? I'm annoyed because our year anniversary is on the 4th of September but Uni starts on the 1st, so I miss our anniversary. Sucks to be me I guess. I don't know how I'm going to do without seeing him every day, that thought alone breaks my heart. The thought of leaving him behind makes me not want to go to university, which is crazy and he'd never allow it. But it's true, I'd rather stay here with him than go to university. It's alright for Lucy, her boyfriend lives like, one train stop away from her. I have to commute from Wales to Cornwall every time I want to hug my boyfriend. Well obviously not, but you know what I mean.
Urgh I've depressed myself now XD Happy thoughts, we still have 6 months left, we'll just have to make them count.
Also I wouldn't want to upset Joe, if he for some reason prefers the ginger-ness that is on top of my head. I may ask him, then head down to boots and get some dye, either dark red, dark reddish brown or brown methinks.
Anyways, I've been having very very happy times at the moment, I dunno, I think that because the pressure of exams has been lifted every student has a new lease of life. Everyone seems happier to have them out of the way. New modules seem more interesting, our biology teacher nearly has her mojo back though she does still insist on the occasional 'work pack' every now and again. I don't know how she thinks filling in a gap sheet makes and information go in. Oh well, I guess we all have the knowledge that in a few months we get to start all over again.
Buut, after that, none of us have to see anyone else unless we actually want to. Leaving school/college FREE education is quite scary, I don't know if I'm ready to be an adult. Spending 5 minutes in my company makes anyone realise that I'm not the most mature person on the planet, but I can't help but behave childishly. Life would be boring if anyone was too serious, they'd never have any fun. But the idea of having to go and make more new friends is just terrifying, I like the ones I have now thank you very much. I never make good first impressions, either by being hyperactive when we meet so they think I'm like...really weird, or by being too shy where people just think I'm too quiet to bother with. Every time I've done something that required me to make new friends, ie when we moved down here and then when I went to college; I've promised myself that I would be more outgoing. So far it hasn't worked.
I mean sure, I've made quite a few friends whilst I was in college and I wouldn't change any of my friends from school, I just don't like trying to talk to people I don't know. I daresay I'll be fine, because I have been so far, I never don't make friends (unless I choose not to) so yeah it'll be good. It's just the prospect that's scary.
The topic of great discussion at the moment is student finance. Lucy was freaking out because she thought that she only had £3,500 to live off of a year and her accomodation was going to be £4,000, so how on earth was she going to afford the extra £500. Luckily the government's a little more generous than that, and you get two loads of money to live off of. The maintenance loan (mine is £3995) and the maintenance grant (mine is like £2000) so all in all I'm going to be getting £6,000. And my accomodation isi £3.5K a year so I'll have £2.5K to live off of a year. In three handy term packages. I'm especially thankful that they hand out money termly, cos I'd be worrying about spending all my money and having nothing at the end of the year.
I honestly just can't wait to leave home. I can't wait to rule my own life. I can't wait to be able to go to Joe's on any long weekends I have free. He doesn't know that yet, hopefully he won't read this, but I'm going to surprise him with a visit soon after I've left. Because I think that's the thing that's troubling us both at the moment, what happens in september? I'm annoyed because our year anniversary is on the 4th of September but Uni starts on the 1st, so I miss our anniversary. Sucks to be me I guess. I don't know how I'm going to do without seeing him every day, that thought alone breaks my heart. The thought of leaving him behind makes me not want to go to university, which is crazy and he'd never allow it. But it's true, I'd rather stay here with him than go to university. It's alright for Lucy, her boyfriend lives like, one train stop away from her. I have to commute from Wales to Cornwall every time I want to hug my boyfriend. Well obviously not, but you know what I mean.
Urgh I've depressed myself now XD Happy thoughts, we still have 6 months left, we'll just have to make them count.
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