Ramblings of Boredom :P

So  I haven't blogged here in a good while, but nothing really is happening or worthy of wasting anyone's time to read.

I still trundle along in my little life, getting messages of love through my phone every 15 minutes at least that brighten my day when he cannot. I think I'm getting comfy, and this is the stage where I start to worry, start to worry that he'll leave me like the rest. My heart knows I'm being stupid and that the dull ache we both feel in our chests when we're apart isn't exactly going to go away yet. We're the same with eachother as we were in the beginning, only we know that we can count on the other and that we both want the same things out of life. (I especially like bringing up one thing, because he gets all embarassed he's been thinking about it at all; I for one think it's adorable :P)

But that really completely sums up the past few weeks, everyone at college has turned their minds to the upcoming exam results on thursday and are making plans to go out and get hammered to forget the woes of the day. As I moved into A-Levels, the hopes of getting pretty much straight A's slipped from my grasp. I was never in to doing extra work, and never really needed to and now that I do, I just can't and rely on just being average. I'm smart, I know that much, enough people tell me so. I just lack motivation. Though I have gained a motivation, trying hard, getting A's and moving in with Joe next September and going to Uni together.

That's my motivation. Joe's is slightly different, but still involving me, just a little further into the future when his role as the provider will begin.
I'm thinking about this post and wondering how on earth I'll bring myself to post it.
I want to write a new story, only I have no idea what. I miss spending hours writing alone in my room, my head so full of characters and potential plot idea's that I could never write them down fast enough. Now though, I cannot help but miss it. I missed the characters I created, even though they were just slightly altered versions of myself and the love interest in my life, I liked to make little scenarios of what could happen. I'm just a sap really who needs to get a life. XD

I started shopping for my holiday! :D I'm so glad that I can spend money again, even if it's on stuff I can't technically use till july. Of the £100 my mum gave me for holiday clothes and stuff, I have spent £30 so far and should end up with £35 left over if all goes to plan.
And I might be getting a job soon, which will take the pressure off of my EMA alone. And I can afford (hopefully) to actually go out and do stuff, seeing as lately I've had literally no money and I've even had to turn down going to Joe's :O. And I  won't have to feel bad about spending money on food. A girl has to eat, and my appetite lately has been bigger than usual.

I really don't have anything else to talk about, only that I'm probably going to be going to see Alice in Wonderland on Thursday in 3D, I've gained a love of 3D films, they're just so much prettier than 2D ones XD Plus it means that I get to stay round Joe's house and we can spend friday in bed as there is a day off from college :D

Oh happy daaays :)

Hayley
xxxxx
♥ I love you Joe ♥