Always Attract

'Keeping me awake, it's been like this now for days, my heart's out at sea, my head's all over the place. I'm losing sense of time, and everything tastes the same, I'll be home in a day but I fear that's a month too late. That night, I slept on your side of the bed so, it would be ready when you got home' You Me at Six - Always Attract


I actually can't believe it, my boyfriend ruined romantic films for me :O. Well not really ruined per say, but I was watching Pretty Woman today, and that scene where she kisses him for the first time (if you haven't seen it, she's a prostitute and has a rule that she never kisses a guy on the lips) and my heart just ached. I missed him, as sad and lame as that sounds. And oh yeah, he was here this morning, sleeping in my bed. But any second I'm away from him I miss him =/. That's just how it is now. We've been together nearly half a year and it's gone by so quickly, I've loved every minute of it.


Well thats the happiness out of the way, I'd just like to say that being ill sucks. Thanks to the stupid throat infection that I've got, my throat is currently half the size it usually is, which makes eating a barrel full of laughs. Today I think the cold really kicked in, and I've felt so weak all day and cold. Poor me :P 


Last night I had a nosebleed whilst I was at Lucy's house. I haven't had a nosebleed in years, and all that caused it was Joe grabbing my nose and wiggling it. I did it back to him and then my nose started bleeding. Nice. I think he thinks I'm like this teeny fragile person, because every time he accidentally elbows me or hits me, like when we're having tickling wars, he'll apologize for ages and he'll be so upset about it as if he'd actually hurt me, when usually he hasn't. So needless to say that the bleeding incident last night got to him a little. I think it was the fact he'd made me bleed, even though how was just stupid. he's so adorable and loves me so so much :3.


I dunno lately I've just become of the opinion that if you push people away and stop talking to people, you're just letting yourself in for being lonely. People have their reasons and stuff, but really, if you'd behaved a little better towards them, then they'd probably be better people towards you. And bitching about it isn't going to help anyone except yourself. The more you complain, the more they're going to think you're a whiny little bitch who needs to grow a pair and grow up. 
If people don't like you, there's going to be a reason. No offence, but if you can't realise that, then you're a little bit self righteous. No one's perfect, not even you so just cut everyone a little bit of slack. People CAN change, but being all up in their face isn't going to help anyone.

My current mission...


Get a picture of me and my boyfriend that isn't:
1) Blurry
2) Photobombed
3) Involving drunken people
4) Either of us pulling stupid faces
5) One where I look like a man/uggo/transvestite


Haha though, given the character of both me and Joe, the 4th one doesn't seem too likely. In the mornings at his house, we've occasionally ended up in front of the mirror, and Joe likes himself in the mirror :P He'll probably kill me for voicing that, but it's true. He spent a while talking to his own reflection and posing and stuff, it was so cute. But yeah we were standing, hugging and Joe looked into the mirror and just said; 'we look good in the mirror'. 


And I need a picture dammit! We're going over to Lucy's tomorrow, so I might take a few pictures. Facebook time methinks :)


And Joe's very excited (really :P) to use his valentines day present from me, erm...chocolate morph-suit :P Haha. 


And I really liked his 'I'm not used to tight boxers' dance :D Possibly one of the most funny moments so far XD Well he said that his underwear was boring! So I livened it up a little, with stars and stuff :P They're awesome, and I got him a pair with loved up robots because of the theme of the holiday. Robots are cool. I'd post pictures, but Topman won't let me copy the pictures :@ 


I probably rambled quite a bit on that one =/ oh wells, this is MY blog and I can do what I like :P Haha


Much Love


The Tiggle Monstaar
p.s. I love you Joe ♥

Valentines Day

Let's just say that February the 15th will be the REAL valentines day! Today was a fake one...I swear! I only say that because I didn't get to see Joe today, through a bunch of circumstances I've already whined about enough on my other blog (check my facebook page!) Buut I get to see him tomorrow and the next day. :D

February

So I changed my layout. I think it'd pretty :D It only took me a little effort and paintshop pro to make the awesome header. Me and my Joe :3.


So me and my life at the moment. Well, my mum's wandering round feeling sorry for herself and being self involved because she has man flu. Yes, man flu. She's starting to whinge that I don't spend any time with her. But why would I when all she talks about herself and how she feels awful. I mean I've had colds. I've been pathetic for a day then just got on with it. It's nearly been a week. So no, I don't want to spend any time with you because you're annoying to be around. Painful but true. I think every person reaches a time in their lives when they realise that at least one of their parents are pathetic and it then becomes their aim in life not to turn into them.


My best friend gets to stay at her boyfriends for a week with absolutely no fuss, but I can get hassle over a few days every weekend. Sometimes life just isn't fair.


But yeah, it's still pretty damn cold around here at the moment, I don't want to venture out any more than I have to, coldness makes my chest hurt to breathe. But I ventured off down town again today to go V-day shopping. I didn't get what I wanted to get, because Next's stores don't stock everything they have online :( But I had a trip to ann summers to check out their 'Accessories' and got some stuff from there. I can imagine Joe's face now and I think I'm going to have a laugh on Sunday :D. Well, maybe not a laugh in the end ;)


But yeah I've spent much more than I probably should have, and don't really have that much to show for it =/ which is always the case, but I didn't get my EMA bonus so that sucks quite a bit :(.


But I'm going to Portugal with Joe in the summer :D Which'll be amazing. We have our own bathroom ;). I'm thinking of asking my grandparents for a small loan so that there's a little less pressure to save in time for June. Because although I'm waiting on £200 at the moment from EMA and the tax people, I don't want to have to really worry about whether or not I'll be able to save £550. But yeah. Holiday with the one I love, can't get much better than that now can it?


Much love


Hayley


P.s. I love you Joe Reid ♥

Unii :S

Urgh I'm bored of my hair again :( I hate it when this happens, the last time I got bored of my hair, last halloween I ended up dark brunette, and I liked it. I'd love to have really really red hair, like, dark-ish red. But unfortunately my skin probably wouldn't allow it =/ I don't know really, and there's also the force that is my mother.

Also I wouldn't want to upset Joe, if he for some reason prefers the ginger-ness that is on top of my head. I may ask him, then head down to boots and get some dye, either dark red, dark reddish brown or brown methinks.

Anyways, I've been having very very happy times at the moment, I dunno, I think that because the pressure of exams has been lifted every student has a new lease of life. Everyone seems happier to have them out of the way. New modules seem more interesting, our biology teacher nearly has her mojo back though she does still insist on the occasional 'work pack' every now and again. I don't know how she thinks filling in a gap sheet makes and information go in. Oh well, I guess we all have the knowledge that in a few months we get to start all over again.

Buut, after that, none of us have to see anyone else unless we actually want to. Leaving school/college FREE education is quite scary, I don't know if I'm ready to be an adult. Spending 5 minutes in my company makes anyone realise that I'm not the most mature person on the planet, but I can't help but behave childishly. Life would be boring if anyone was too serious, they'd never have any fun. But the idea of having to go and make more new friends is just terrifying, I like the ones I have now thank you very much. I never make good first impressions, either by being hyperactive when we meet so they think I'm like...really weird, or by being too shy where people just think I'm too quiet to bother with. Every time I've done something that required me to make new friends, ie when we moved down here and then when I went to college; I've promised myself that I would be more outgoing. So far it hasn't worked.
I mean sure, I've made quite a few friends whilst I was in college and I wouldn't change any of my friends from school, I just don't like trying to talk to people I don't know. I daresay I'll be fine, because I have been so far, I never don't make friends (unless I choose not to) so yeah it'll be good. It's just the prospect that's scary.

The topic of great discussion at the moment is student finance. Lucy was freaking out because she thought that she only had £3,500 to live off of a year and her accomodation was going to be £4,000, so how on earth was she going to afford the extra £500. Luckily the government's a little more generous than that, and you get two loads of money to live off of. The maintenance loan (mine is £3995) and the maintenance grant (mine is like £2000) so all in all I'm going to be getting £6,000. And my accomodation isi £3.5K a year so I'll have £2.5K to live off of a year. In three handy term packages. I'm especially thankful that they hand out money termly, cos I'd be worrying about spending all my money and having nothing at the end of the year.

I honestly just can't wait to leave home. I can't wait to rule my own life. I can't wait to be able to go to Joe's on any long weekends I have free. He doesn't know that yet, hopefully he won't read this, but I'm going to surprise him with a visit soon after I've left. Because I think that's the thing that's troubling us both at the moment, what happens in september? I'm annoyed because our year anniversary is on the 4th of September but Uni starts on the 1st, so I miss our anniversary. Sucks to be me I guess. I don't know how I'm going to do without seeing him every day, that thought alone breaks my heart. The thought of leaving him behind makes me not want to go to university, which is crazy and he'd never allow it. But it's true, I'd rather stay here with him than go to university. It's alright for Lucy, her boyfriend lives like, one train stop away from her. I have to commute from Wales to Cornwall every time I want to hug my boyfriend. Well obviously not, but you know what I mean.

Urgh I've depressed myself now XD Happy thoughts, we still have 6 months left, we'll just have to make them count.