I was a bit down at the weekend, I get so bogged down by the little things, and I don't even have the balls to talk to anyone about them, no matter how important I am to them. I shrug things off and say I'm fine and all that jazz. But I AM fine now, really and truly and feel more loved than ever; if that's even possible XD.
I basically spent Thursday-Sunday with Joe, which is why I think I was so down Sunday evening and this morning. I get used to having him around all the time and it just makes it harder when he/I have to leave. But it's well worth it, I hope that I get to see him every day forever more =] Like I said, I've cheered up vastly since I last wrote, so much so that I roll my eyes thinking about how miserable I sound. I annoy myself sometimes lol
And what have I done today? Well, this morning I had Maths which was good, Georgia and I were singing Journey - Don't Stop Believing and annoying the hell out of Kath because we only know like two lines. And I also had Chemistry, where we basically sit and listen to the teacher talk. I'm not sure whether her style of teaching suits me or not, I understand stuff more now and it seems to retain in my head, but that could just be to do with the fact I don't have Florence and Zara to distract me. I love them, but they didn't do my grades much good =/ especially when we were 'revising' for the last exam, where we basically procrastinated as much as humanly possible because we didn't 'feel like it'.
Three out of five of the Universities I applied to have confirmed they have recieved my application. So far:
Peninsula School of Medicine and Dentistry
University of Southampton
Glamorgan
Southampton and Glamorgan sent me a postcard, the first of which I got from Glamorgan on a day where I was a little pissed off, but after getting it in the post I felt so so much better. Peninsula just sent me an email and I was like 'Gee, thanks'. They are my first choice though =/ I don't know why, I wanted to move out, away from my parents, from everything. Especially at the beginning of the year when I just wanted to get away and start over because there were too many memories here. But now I don't want to leave, because I don't know what it will mean for me and Joe =( Every time I think about it I get really selfish and just want him to come with me so we can stay together, but I'd do the same for him if I didn't manage to get in this year. Which given the statistics is very likely unless I'm very lucky.
But when I think of living with him, it's just indescribable, I want it SO badly it's almost crazy. And just so you know, we'll have been together two months the day after tomorrow. THAT's what makes it crazy, and yet I am crazy about him, much more than I have ever been before.
Wow, this ended up being quite long =/ haha I like having things to write about, I never even mentioned going to Simon's photography lesson or my piano lesson...where I have apparently greatly improved (squee!)
Oh well, I shall just sign off with a cry of "Up your Viva!" Which I decided was a euphemism for..yeah I think you get the picture :P
Forever yours
~*~Hayley~*~
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