Partaee

Hi guys!


It's been a while (I think, time has lost all meaning lately XD) but between college, piano, homework and going out I really haven't had time to blog =/ 

So this week has really been about the college party, it's pretty much all people talk about at college other than the impending UCAS deadline for those of you who didn't have to hand it in in October. People are getting stressed out left right and centre because they can't write their personal statement or their tutors haven't finished their references yet. You can tell when someone's sent it off because they immediately calm down....until they begin stressing about whether they're going to get any offers. I mean, I'm stressing about it and I probably won't hear anything till January if I hear anything at all. I'm choosing to ignore the passing days as I wait patiently to see if any Med School actually wants me. 

But yeah, the college party was great, I've decided that dancing is better exercise than going to the gym and I suddenly regret not pushing my mum to let me take dance. Oh well, it probably wouldn't have worked out anyway, I'm flexible...but not that flexible XD. I went as a Gladiator to a 'through the decades' theme...I just picked a decade a long long time ago! I went with Annie (the greek goddess in the picture ;)), Joe (who put little or no effort in :P other than UV paint), Aled (an admiral), Ben (who wore a morph suit with shirt cuffs, a tie and trilby), Ben Herrington (Pirate), Sam and Tom (who really wanted some clunge ;)). But even though we were an hour and  a half late and soaking wet because there seemed to be torrential rain outside, it was still worth it!


It was Aled's birthday too, so we were celebrating that too. We were going to stay up after we got back because the party finished at one, but when Annie, Lucy, Ben H and I got home we were just like 'no thanks, bed' and by the time everyone else got back we'd all changed into our pj's and gone to bed. In the end I did stay up till about 4:30am because...well Joe was there :D


It was murder getting into college on Wednesday, I nearly fell asleep in Maths and just 'had' to go to Starbucks with Annie to get some caffeine! We stayed in there for hours just chatting about stuff, mainly guys we'd had/have relationships with and how our previous relationships fucked up. Also any embarrassing experiences we'd had in the bedroom, I was glad I definitely wasn't the only one! It was nice to have someone to talk to about that kind of stuff, because none of my other friends really have any experience with guys or I don't feel comfortable enough with them. I missed having girl times where we just sit and talk for ages, we never seem to do that anymore :S


I'm going to go because it's nearly time for a cuppa :D

Forever Yours

~*~Hayley~*~

New Moon!

Okay so I deleted my last post, because it was fairly depressing. And it was just me whining on, I was feeling kinda upset in a overreacting way and I don't think I could have read it without wanting to slap myself XD. So yeah =/


And so the weather gets colder by the day, while I don't like the cold, I like wrapping up warm and going for long walks. That probably sounds quite sad, but at the moment, everywhere you go there are lots of fallen leaves that when they're dry, make everything look so colourful. Plus you of course have to crunch your way through those leaves, tearing them for all they're worth. Unfortunately it's been raining all day today and rain generally makes me feel depressed, unless I'm having fun in the rain. Kisses in the rain are the way forward ;)


Urgh I'm feeling quite ill right now, my tummy isn't happy at all =( 


I spent today and yesterday with Joe, Lucy and Lyd, we stayed round Lucy's and watched Bruno,which is a very funny film in that it's just so so wrong! Then Lyd went home and I got to sleep with Joe, which is probably my favourite thing at the moment, I can even find the humour in his loud snoring at 5o'clock in the morning :) He's adorable when he sleeps, plus he's really really warm, which is something that often evades me. So yeah, it's like having a hot water bottle with a nice ass :P Which I don't think is a concept he really grasps XD he thinks I'm weird whenever I go near it. Sucks to be him when he finds out about my skin obsession! Which isn't as weird as it sounds, I just really like how skin feels. Which is why I prefer skin to skin contact ;)


I went to see New Moon today, which is my least favourite book in the Twilight Saga. But, it was a much better film than the first one, this one stuck to the book a little better and didn't feel so wooden. It doesn't help that Robert Pattinson,who plays Edward, is such an ugly fucker. The character is so hot though, I don't think they would have been able to find a guy hot enough to play him. So, the hotties of the movie are Jacob (Taylor Lautner) and Jasper (Jackson Rathbone). Just an FYI for you :) Also, I loved the ending, as I loved that scene in the book, because the last line of the film is 'Marry me?' That book was always the hardest for me to read because I have serious abandonment issues. I'd probably be willing to be unhappy just to not be alone. So when Bella gets left by two guys one after the other it just rings home for me. Hence why I cried a little. I just get thinking about someone I love desperately leaving me. 


But anyway I think I'm going to go and get some sleep, see if I feel better in the morning.

Forever Yours

~*~Hayley~*~

D=

Just discovered there are much much worse things than being broken up with.

And hasn't felt so unwanted in a long time :(

Toothpaste Kisses

I dunno where the post name came from.....but meh I like it!


I'm pleased with how much I'm keeping up with this blogging business, I thought it would be like last time where I posted twice and then I was never seen again. 


Since last friday I haven't really done anything which is a bad thing seeing as I have to start revising for my exams in January. I really need someone to kick me up the ass and tell me to get the fuck on with it, but unfortunately my parents have never really been like that =/. Which is why I spent Friday playing on the Xbox and my piano. Not really constructive I don't think. Saturday was really just non-existent except for the thunderstorm. And bearing in mind thunder and lightning fall into my category of things I am not tolerant of along with insects and the dark. I was just sat at home waiting till it was over. 

Hee, just gonna post the little part of my conversation with Joe to keep it for posterity:

~♥~    Hayley    ~♥~ says:
*I'm gonna add in a third question cos I like to hear you say it/write it
* 3) Do you love me? :P
[      Joe      ]      says:
*more than anything in the world hayley (L)


There :D big smiles all around now. Urgh, at the moment I'm happy and sad. Happy because, well you just read that, and I'm just so happy whenever he's around. Which you may have gathered by now. But also I miss him so desperately when he isn't around it just drives me crazy. I can't actually do anything to take my mind off of it because he manages to find  a way back into my head. Crazy in Love as they say XD.


So far, I'm going to Joe's on Friday/Saturday (yay ♥) and next saturday I'm going to see New Moon!!! Gah that book makes me cry. Especially when you're feeling particularly lonely. I remember trying to read it a while back and so much of it really rang home that I got a few chapters in and had to put it away, I just couldn't do it. Whereas when I first read it I was just like, get a grip Bella.
But yeah I'm really excited, the first one was so so, despite the fact that Rob Pattinson is an ugly munter. But this one has a new director so I have high hopes and I daresay I'll get caught up in the moment and be like oh my god this is the best thing everrr. Then I'll buy it and rip the shit out of it like I did Twilight.
Sophie: Ooooh I SPARKLE!!
But Taylor Lautner (Jacob) is pretty damn hot in this one ;) haha...I don't mean that 8-)






But that's my news for the time being...no more responses from Uni's but Medicine takes a while...a very long while. It's just irritating having your future decided by a bunch of people who haven't really met you.


Anywho I'm going to go now and get a cuppa tea :)

Forever yours

~*~Hayley~*~ 

Pink Neon Gloves

I have so so so much to talk about! =D 


First of all, one of the universities I've applied to have offered me a conditional place. And yeah, it's my fifth choice and not even really what I want to do, but it's the fact that someone wants me that's important. As a stupid rule you're only allowed to apply to four Medicine courses and the fifth choice has to be another subject. The entry requirements for Forensic Science are loow, they want 240 UCAS points and seeing as:
A = 120
B = 100
C = 80
D = 60
E = 40
And I'm currently predicted AAAB which adds up to 460 UCAS points, when they saw my application they probably either wet themselves or came...or both. Haha a modest moment there! But yeah, I had a happy day when I saw that =] I just need to wait for the Med schools to get back to me and unfortunately that all takes so much longer, I may be waiting until February to know if some of the Universities even want to see me for an interview. Unfortunately I'm a very impatient person and don't really want to have to wait until they make up their minds. lol.


*Goes to read last blog* I couldn't remember where I'd got to, Monday. Well, the main suck-fest of the week was that Joe was ill on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday, ergo I only saw him on monday :( I miss him far too much for it to be fair. I'm planning on taking Joe and Lucy ice-skating probably the week after next and when discussing with Mum how Joe was going to get there she said, "he should really move a bit closer up here," and I was like, yes please. But she suggested he stays here, and I'm hoping she won't go all 'he has to sleep in Simon's room' Nazi on me again. I miss going to sleep with him touching me, or even near me and that wall between mine and Simons room is just a little bit too far =( I'm going to Joe's next week, I prefer it round Joe's because its a lot more relaxed because his Dad's cool. Unfortunately last week I got a little too relaxed in his house (it's easy to forget there are other people there =/) and Joe's brother Billy commented the next day that he couldn't sleep because I was being too loud.. :$ oops. As I was typing that I realised there are a lot of Bills in that house...like all of them...Joe's Dad is called Bill/William, his brother is Billy and Joe's middle name is *cough*...daaayuumm. Sorry, sidetracked, if Joe reads this he's gonna be like what a retard XD.


Urgh I felt so icky this morning, every now and again I get like a week where when I wake up, I feel as if I'm going to throw up...which is never good =/ 


The pantomime I'm doing is going well so far, I ought to learn my lines though, even though it's only like the third rehersal in. I feel really bad though and like I'm going to get in shit. I highlighted all my lines in the book, which to me is perfectly acceptable, but then I found out we weren't supposed to write in them cos we have to give them back...oops. The director Kate is really pissing Lucy off, she's trying to tell us how to sing songs when she's off key and generally sucks at singing haha. 


This week we've been getting performance and effort grades in our lessons, it's basically for our reports and I got:
Biology :       Be Cp
Chemistry :   Ce Cp
Psychology : Ae Bp
My Maths teacher hasn't thought of them yet...
Though in my talks with my biology and chemistry lecturers, my biology teacher, Lindsay, said that she thought I could get an A. Which makes you think, why not just put an A or even a B for performance? Deary. And my Chemistry teacher is worried about me, because I don't talk to anyone. *sigh*


I think it's sleepy time. So I shall post this :) Long Blog today!

Forever Yours

~*~Hayley~*~

=D

Just in case you thought I was just some miserable depressed emo-child I thought I'd pop in a quick post about how happy I am todaaay!!


I was a bit down at the weekend, I get so bogged down by the little things, and I don't even have the balls to talk to anyone about them, no matter how important I am to them. I shrug things off and say I'm fine and all that jazz. But I AM fine now, really and truly and feel more loved than ever; if that's even possible XD. 


I basically spent Thursday-Sunday with Joe, which is why I think I was so down Sunday evening and this morning. I get used to having him around all the time and it just makes it harder when he/I have to leave. But it's well worth it, I hope that I get to see him every day forever more =] Like I said, I've cheered up vastly since I last wrote, so much so that I roll my eyes thinking about how miserable I sound. I annoy myself sometimes lol


And what have I done today? Well, this morning I had Maths which was good, Georgia and I were singing Journey - Don't Stop Believing and annoying the hell out of Kath because we only know like two lines. And I also had Chemistry, where we basically sit and listen to the teacher talk. I'm not sure whether her style of teaching suits me or not, I understand stuff more now and it seems to retain in my head, but that could just be to do with the fact I don't have Florence and Zara to distract me. I love them, but they didn't do my grades much good =/ especially when we were 'revising' for the last exam, where we basically procrastinated as much as humanly possible because we didn't 'feel like it'. 


Three out of five of the Universities I applied to have confirmed they have recieved my application. So far:
Peninsula School of Medicine and Dentistry
University of Southampton
Glamorgan


Southampton and Glamorgan sent me a postcard, the first of which I got from Glamorgan on a day where I was a little pissed off, but after getting it in the post I felt so so much better. Peninsula just sent me an email and I was like 'Gee, thanks'. They are my first choice though =/ I don't know why, I wanted to move out, away from my parents, from everything. Especially at the beginning of the year when I just wanted to get away and start over because there were too many memories here. But now I don't want to leave, because I don't know what it will mean for me and Joe =( Every time I think about it I get really selfish and just want him to come with me so we can stay together, but I'd do the same for him if I didn't manage to get in this year. Which given the statistics is very likely unless I'm very lucky. 


But when I think of living with him, it's just indescribable, I want it SO badly it's almost crazy. And just so you know, we'll have been together two months the day after tomorrow. THAT's what makes it crazy, and yet I am crazy about him, much more than I have ever been before.


Wow, this ended up being quite long =/ haha I like having things to write about, I never even mentioned going to Simon's photography lesson or my piano lesson...where I have apparently greatly improved (squee!) 


Oh well, I shall just sign off with a cry of "Up your Viva!" Which I decided was a euphemism for..yeah I think you get the picture :P 

Forever yours

~*~Hayley~*~