Urgh, so I was reading through my last post and I would like to say that I'm actually such a whiny person it's unbelievable XD. Oh well, it's kind of hard to explain what's happened to me in the past 6-ish months...there's been so much it's like I live in some kind of soap opera. To explain I shall use middle names, cos I'm cool like that :P So that guy I didn't really like and was kind of a rebound, his name is Daniel by the way :P I was in biology one day and one thing led to another and I decided that when you get butterflies when someone touches you it has to be a good sign. So I, disregarding what my head was screaming (ie run away!!) I agreed to become his girlfriend. Biggest mistake EVER. I had always thought I wanted a guy who was willing to make me the most important thing in his life (selfish I know, but meh, we're all a bit selfish) and buy me stuff for no reason and pay for me when we went places. But very soon I learnt that Daniel was all these things to the extreme. He was so paranoid that I was going to leave him for someone else that he felt the need to right my clothes when they exposed a little too much skin for his liking. He would constantly make insecure 'jokes' like "well why don't you just leave me because its clear you want to". It was just little things that added up to making any time with him a living hell. Soon after we got together, college broke up for the summer. I knew that he would get worse when I didn't see him every day and sure enough he got even more insecure that I was cheating on him or whatever. He even took to asking my best friend (who doesn't have a middle name :@) where I was if I hadn't come on to MSN.
If you've ever been tr
apped in a small box with no means of escape you'll know what those couple of months were like for me. I hated every moment I was with him, I wish I hadn't let it go on for as long as I did, but it doesn't matter now. One night, I was round a friends and we had got a little drunk, my friends more than me as always. They stole my phone from me after I had complained about Daniel and ran upstairs with it. I had thought nothing of it and let them, thinking there wasn't anything on my phone that was important. Later that evening, I checked my phone to see 9 missed calls and 5 messages from Daniel asking if what my friends had said was true, was I really sick of him. I texted back saying that I didn't really know what he was talking about and that we would talk later. Two days later I was single. One day after that I stopped drinking again. So weeks passed, Daniel didn't talk to me and I was perfectly happy about that :D.
If you've ever been tr
apped in a small box with no means of escape you'll know what those couple of months were like for me. I hated every moment I was with him, I wish I hadn't let it go on for as long as I did, but it doesn't matter now. One night, I was round a friends and we had got a little drunk, my friends more than me as always. They stole my phone from me after I had complained about Daniel and ran upstairs with it. I had thought nothing of it and let them, thinking there wasn't anything on my phone that was important. Later that evening, I checked my phone to see 9 missed calls and 5 messages from Daniel asking if what my friends had said was true, was I really sick of him. I texted back saying that I didn't really know what he was talking about and that we would talk later. Two days later I was single. One day after that I stopped drinking again. So weeks passed, Daniel didn't talk to me and I was perfectly happy about that :D.Then on the 27th of September James had a party, inviting some of his other friends. (who's names I'll make up, because one probably would
n't like me using his middle name and I don't know the other ones) and, have you ever just clicked with someone? Like you've known eachother for years yet have only just met? I had one of those moments. When you're trapped in a very serious tickle war with a guy you've only just really met, it doesn't take a bright spark to realise there's chemistry there. Though that day I can say I hooked up one of my friends, Annie with her new boyfriend...Welshy :P In the end, I basically fell in love with James' best friend, which he was obviously upset about, him being my ex and all :S Lol I finally ran out of steam on that one.
He is abusive though, and I love him for it :P
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