Allright! The sun is shining and it's another beautiful day! Though I'm stuck inside doing REVISION for my stupid biology exam tomorrow. =[ But I guess if I want to get into University I'm going to have to do well...sigh. After that though is my chemistry exam on Wednesday, which I'm even more worried about seeing as I got a D in the exam in January. Trying to get in to Medicine requires an A in chemistry, which so far evades me completely.
But anyway, I'm currently obsessing over how amazingly cute Patrick Stumph is...I love his singing voice (listening to: So Sick BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge) not quite as melt-worthy as Mr Brendon Urie but still totally hawt.
I'm giving up on the world of romance and become a lesbian with my other female friends who have given up on men. I was in a relationship for three years until this April and throughout those three years I never dreamt about him once, but now! Every night for two stinking months, as if getting over him wasn't hard enough without my subconscious reminding me what it was like. I hate the 'I want to still be friends' line. As if I can be friends with you?!? I'm still in love with you, you idiot. To make matters worse though, he said that he 'still loves me but wants me to find someone who can give me the attention I deserve' great. So basically I'm a needy neurotic psycho who won't leave him alone. How are you supposed to move on from someone everyone, including the both of us, thought would get married? I mean sure, we're only 17 but lots of people make it in marriage at this age. Okay, maybe not but its a dream isn't it? When you can see yourself with someone when you're old and crinkly has to mean that you're happy right?
Gah, I had to get that one off of my chest, all my friends are sick of listening to me. ThatGuyWho'sNameShallNotBeMentioned (TGWNSNBM) 'wants to be single for a while' all the while saying on Facebook 'Now I remember what single life is like :('. I just don't think he knows what he wants at the moment, neither do I to be honest. I had another door open for me the other day, one of my guy friends from college is crazy about me and would walk through fire for me. I went over to his house on wednesday thinking that I was falling in love with him. Halfway through the day a thought jumped into my head "What the hell are you doing? This is gross!" By the time I'd gotten home I realised that I had been using him as a distraction, rebound guy. Which was cruel at best. One thing to get clear, I have a lot more morals than a lot of people my age (I think so at least):
I don't drink because I think it just makes people act foolish and stupid
I don't smoke because thats just slowly killing yourself
I don't do one night stands, I'll only sleep with people I truly love and have been with for a long time. Which is
why my count is at one, TGWNSNBM.I'm the 'innocent one' out of all my friends, which is fine by me, given all the drunken mistakes they've all made.
I like putting pictures on here :D. But anyway, I think that's enough of me today. Just wanted to add on to the end here the Vector my friend clansoul is making for me, I'll use his webname because it's so much cooler XD. But here it is:
It's not finished obviously, but its pretty awesome all the same!
Cheers
Hayley
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